Tax quiz
3:06 p.m. x 19.09.08
I've been studying really hard for today's Tax quiz. Not very very very hard, but I put in quite a lot of effort, at least 80%, since last week.
Yet, E isn't equal to P.
I think I'll do badly for it, not because I didn't study or because I don't know how to do, but more because I "think too much" and complicated matters unnecessarily. Plus, carelessness. Just as I was with French quiz. Dennis asked when I complained about my 26.5/30, "You already did so well, how many marks do you want?" Well, I don't need full marks. I just want to reduce all the marks lost due to careless mistakes to zero. Even that 0.5 mark I lost due to carelessness is NOT ACCEPTABLE to me.
I wept quite a bit after Tax quiz just now, I hope no one spoted it. But I still feel a tad happy that CK and SH asked if I was alright. I felt better, although not by much, after that.
I just feel like getting away from all these!
------------------------i'm all emotional again...everytime I read the ***g
4:10 p.m. x 14.09.08
I *kinda* hate you
but I hate myself more.
ok, maybe not to the extent of hatrd, but it just rhymes better.
I don't need friends like you, and neither do you need a friend like me, I suppose.
bye!
------------------------After allowing it to drag for 6 years,
3:54 p.m. x 13.09.08
I've had enough.
I promise, swear, som-pa that I will forget from now on. Not going to waste anymore time, effort and emotions on this zut.
ok, back to Tax revision. *frowns*
I just had to rant, a bit.
------------------------it burns me 108712691 calories just to keep the smile on
1:15 a.m. x 11.09.08
I wasn't born this way.
My childhood playmates, classmates, friends, teacher...made me who I am now.
His one line 'I like your smile' made me try so very hard to keep the smile one.
But I sometimes hope I could be another person. And let everything go. It's tiring.
But, I'm trying.
ganbatte, yingMa.
------------------------Exco outing at Lynn's place!
8:08 p.m. x 07.09.08
I've just finished my Accounting tut (left with 1 optional question) so I'm giving myself a very short break to type up this entry.
I'm so so so tired...not physically, but emotionally. I don't feel like moving anymore but I know I can't take a break. Even when I do take a break, my commitments still continuing haunting me at the back of my mind.
But, in the midst of homework, readings and stress from my peers, only one group of people could pull me away from my study area - SSC Exco.
We finally had a gathering, after about 3 months or so...the last time was yumcha, without Caron because we couldn't contact him. This time, at the suggestion of Bryan, we've finally met up again. I hesitated whether to go or not because I had a lot of things to do...but I'm glad I finally decided to because it was such a pleasent gathering. We had lunch at a Thai cafe near Lynn Ern's place. If you know me well, you would know that I don't really like Thai food. But I went along with it because...sometimes it's ok to sacrifice for people you like, although this wasn't really too much of a sacrifice.
If you do remember, I wrote in my previous entry about the yumcha gathering that I felt most at ease with the Exco, and small gestures make me feel like I'm in the right place. We ordered zi char style (Caron's suggestion) and had a few dishes before us, one of which is a bowl of Tomyum soup. I don't drink that. but nvm. =) And Bryan started drinking from it, dipping his spoon into the bowl of spicyness and dishing out a mouthful of soup. Like it was nothing. Well, it IS nothing, but if I were ever to do that with the group of friends now, it WILL BE something. Well, I doubt we'll even order zi char style like this in the first place! It's not that I'm against such healthy, non-saliva sharing eating habits, but I just prefer the go-wild, natural feel I get from my other group of friends.
After eating, we went to Lynn's and played wii. We had so much laughs while playing - from the games and from the hilarious remarks made by Bryn and gang. It's fun and laughter at their purest, true and from the bottom of our hearts.
I miss that.
And now, back to my books.
Back to the world where I can no longer walk without feeling stressed. The people around me are too scary, I am too weak...and so, I've got to be stronger. But when that happens, it'll be when I start to become another person, without a life.
------------------------Present for Samantha
7:34 p.m. x 01.09.08
I spent the whole afternoon in school doing something with sh.
I'm so proud of our achievement!! It's been a long while since I made something/spent so much effort for someone's present...I miss that feeling, although this time it's more of a "I want to spend so much effort because I want to" and not entirely "I want to spend so much effort because it's her"
Whatever it is, here's what we made, from scratch = a fish/terrapin tank and small items from shops.
If someone did this for me, I'll love her to death! haah! Kawaii deshou?!
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A.RA.SHI.